He could still touch my soul…

Once more I will go into cheesy mode and blog about my impromptu date with the BF. So today was not such a great day. Woke up with body aching. Must be all the late nights. So decide to stay home. BF wants to have dinner so eventually go out to meet him. Lo and behold the rain. It is not cooperating with me. We meet at Starbucks. He is exhausted and very grumpy. So I grab a cup of coffee. The nice barista goes, “Oh kamusta ka naman? (How have you been)”. I go, “very tired..” he goes “Well cute parin ”. I smile at him and walk back to the table with my coffee. I see the BF’s grumpy face and get annoyed. (Thought running through mind is HOW COME BARISTA CAN BE NICE AND YOU CAN’T). 

So anyway we leave Starbucks and he asks me where I want to eat. I say anywhere and we head over to Glorietta. As we entered Glorietta, he seemed to be in a better mood. Apparently the rain annoyed him and made him feel even more stressed. So we grab dinner and he asks me if I want to go for a drink. Apparently we are not meeting anyone. So we trek over to Grappa’s at Greenbelt.

He orders the house beer (called Pilsner something). The vodka ice I ordered was lukewarm so I decide to try Pilsner something. (Note: This is the first time I actually drink beer because I do not like the smell of it. But Pilsner something has no smell, so I opted to try that). I get the 300ml one and start drinking. It did not taste too bad.  So as we both drank, we started talking about work, life in general and other people.

BF: (after 500ml of Pilsner something) Why do you love me? I am not rich, handsome or intelligent 

Me: (after 200ml of Pilsner something) You bring out the best in me. There are so many reasons I love you but there is no ONE specific reason.

BF: (shuts up)

ME: (after another 200ml of Pilsner something) Why do you love me?

BF: Because I admire you

ME: (feigning annoyance) WHAT?! You admire me? So you love everyone you admire?

BF: (trying hard to sound coherent after 1000ml of Pilsner something) I love you because of the way you are. You are one of the people I admire the most. I admire the way you carry yourself. I love the way you look after me. I love the way you put yourself into your work. I love you for so many things that I cannot find the words to express them because I cannot find the right word to express that love for you (then he stops and says in his tipsy state NOW YOU ARE MAKING ME CRY.

**Note: No guy in their right mind would cry for no apparent reason. They must be either intoxicated, overwhelmed by the feelings they are experiencing at that moment, due to some humongous problem or a mixture of the 3)

ME (looks at him and indeed, his eyes are tearing up and it is not just because of the booze)

ME (eyes start welling up)

BF (holds the hand which has the promise ring he gave me and touches my chin)

ME: (holds his hand tightly) I am sure that there have been moments or at least A moment in our 4 year relationship that you felt like giving up or doubted what we have. Thank you for not giving up. Thank you for sticking by me.

BF (looks at me with red eyes) I love you

ME (whispers) I love you too (thinking are you crying or just getting drunk)

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I have always known that we have something special because we have been through a lot together. We have been through the loss of a very beloved one, career changes, family disputes and many other things. But it amazed me that after all this time, I could still make him cry. I could still touch his heart.  His love for me has not dwindled. It has grown stronger as we get to know each other better.

With this, I say that this has been one of my best days and one of our best dates ever.  Because I saw once more that after 4 years he could still touch my soul…